Saturday, April 01, 2006

Happy days are here again

About a month ago, I turned to Jube and said, "You know, I was pretty depressed earlier this year. I'm glad that I feel better now!"

He said, "I know you were depressed. It was pretty obvious."

This surprised me, because I always think that I do a good job of hiding disappointment and depression. I suppose that it must have been really glaring, though, when I think back on it. I refused to admit that Nice seemed like a pretty good place to live; I cried every weekend when I thought about going back to work on Monday; and I didn't feel like going anywhere, after work or on the weekend. Even when we were on vacation in Gallargues I managed to be depressed for about two days straight because I was not accepted to my first choice university.

Ohh, did I forget to mention to the blogging world that I was applying for a master's program? Well, when I didn't know if I was accepted, I didn't want to jinx it. After I was cut, I didn't want to talk about it because it was pretty painful. But now, I have lots of good news for the future, and thinking that one university didn't want me doesn't make me feel (very) bad anymore, especially since my last choice school has turned out to have a really great program and I don't know why I didn't apply there in the first place. I recently received an e-mail welcoming me to their program. I am also going to be a senior staff member at a summer camp here in Nice. Everything seems to be shaping up well.

Maybe you, my readers, were able to notice my depression, too. I'm here to tell you that I'm feeling lots better. Helping out is the wonderful daylight saving time I found on my return to France. Here in Nice, it doesn't get dark until about 8:00pm (and I'm sure you've heard the rumours of the perpetually sunny weather--almost totally true!). I even went to Zara yesterday and bought a new shirt. The real Gem is back in action!

6 comments:

helene said...

Hurrah! I'm glad you're feeling better. Now you'll be able to revel in Nice in the spring and summer :-)

Gem said...

I think that the spring and summer are definitely part of why I feel better, too :)

Anonymous said...

YAAAAAY Gem! If it makes you feel any better, when I was applying, I applied to three schools and only got into one. Fortunately for me, it was actually my first choice (and it probably showed in my application), but the rejection letters were totally a shock to the system.

Heeeey. Remember all of us, in a hotel in Cinci, taking the GREs? Haha!

- N

Robyn said...

I totally get your whole idea of not talking about something because it would jinx it- I do that too. Plus, who wants to go to some stupid school that doesn't want them? Your new choice will more than likely be a better fit for you too! Congrats!

Anonymous said...

yay! nick and jessica rock, haha. i'm glad that happy times are back :)

-m

Brooke Burch said...

Congratulations, dear!